ughhh i hate being in the verge of hopelessness in love. huhuhuhu. what does he really want from me? x( i hate this confusion ...

i got this from Stephen Crane's book The Red Badge of Courage ..

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial
who, squating upon the ground
held his heart in his hands,
and ate of it.
I said, "is it good, friend?"
"It is bitter - bitter," he answered;
"But I like it
because it is bitter,
and because it is my heart."

Dont know whether it's Crane's piece or was it Emily Dickinson's. But still, these lines of words get into me real good. His/her heart is bitter, but she/he like it anyway. why? because it is his/her heart. I guess right now, the devil is trying to rip off my heart again, but in a very logical way. Hahahaha but then again 'love' ... can it be more logical? i'm not only talking about the love between a man and a woman, but more than that.

Went to Tista's place today. We had a talk about couple of things, but it's good enough to make me think and realized about myself. thanks tis! :)